God reminds me that it's about Him!

Yesterday I sat down with my wife and a cup of coffee, and I pondered the day. I wondered if I was truly doing God's will in my life, or if I was doing only what I was willing to do. Seems a very odd question considering I sold all my things, left a perfectly good job which I enjoyed and moved into a bus with my wife and two of my three kids. This is also the first solid week and a half we have spent 24/7 in the bus and things get real tight, real quick. Maybe I just threw the question out there because I was getting a little discouraged, because our ministry isn't going as smoothly as it did during the first month. The homeless are plentiful, however the churches aren't quick to respond to our plea for help, and the potential food donors don't see the benefit in donations, so this puts all of the burden on our shrinking funds. Or perhaps it's the feeling of taking my family out of their comfort zone, and failing - after all, this is a huge responsibility for me to endure . . . or is it? I'm reminded of Romans 12:2 where God tells us do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, then you will be able to test, and approve what God's will is His good pleasing and perfect will. This reminded me that it's the pattern of this world that tells us we're in control, and the load is ours to bear. However, God's will is to work through us for His glory, so that no one can boast. Shortly after our morning coffee, Carol was doing laundry in the laundromat, and a slew of homeless people came up to my bus as I was working. They asked for food, I gave them a sandwich and some water, and prayed with them. Iwas even able to make a little old homeless lady's (who also was a huge Pittburgh Steelers fan - you could tell by the faded hat she wore) day special by giving her a new Steelers hat, and when she joked about having the shirt I was wearing, off it came, and onto her it went. Then Christ's wisdom struck me. This was God's will; His good pleasing, and perfect will, that leads to that peace that surpasses all understanding; to help the downtrodden, show the love, and spread the word of Jesus Christ - God's way, not mine. This is how our minds are transformed. Today we will feed about 50 homeless in Kissimmee, Florida, then head to Tennessee where a church there has agreed to let me speak. Then we will head back to New Jersey for a stint. Please continue to pray.
Peace & Grace
Doug & Family